"The Waiting Room" published in HeadSpace Magazine

My poem "The Waiting Room", inspired by my own experience in counselling during my teenage years, was published in the July 2014 issue of Headspace, a Dublin-based publication edited by Naomi Elster and centered around mental health.   

The Waiting Room


Curious stares - from eyes that looked lidless,  

eyes lost on an uncaring middle distance - 

greeted me when I entered

the waiting room of the Lucena Clinic in Rathgar.

The radiator murmured hotly to itself,  

windows showed me a well-tended lawn, 

and other girls and boys like me, sad-faced

or impassive, felt the hands of shame

clamp our shoulders, anchoring us

to the soft leather seats, marking everyone

with their own clinical brand of psychosis. 

The sunlight cascading through the window

couldn’t puncture the shadow that gripped us. 


Little pearls of wisdom were murmured

into my ears when the moment

for appointment arrived.

I sloped down the quiet corridor

to whatever room was arranged for me.

At the end of each session, each weekly, 

blow-by-blow testimony,

a prescription for Risperdal, to infuse me

with the heavy temptation of sleep,

was handed to my parents. 

For the longest time, I thought it normal to attend

this weekly tribunal of exposition,


to give stilted, hangdog appraisals of my week,

to feel my lived experience held in tacit suspicion.

No doubt some of us needed to be there,

needed a counsellor’s the trained, certified help.

And nothing was ever said, for there was nothing

to say or share. None of us were alone

in the shadow we carried; that was enough.


But I sensed everyone’s brain hissing

behind their low-lidded gaze. Our eyes

locked briefly, like an inference of solidarity.

And I wondered what madness

had been assigned to each of us. 


Friends whom I’ve never spoken to,

whose faces I won’t recognise,

you needn’t be afraid any longer.

I am here, if you need me.

Daniel Wade

Daniel Wade is a poet and playwright from Dublin. In January 2017, his play The Collector opened the 20th anniversary season of the New Theatre, Dublin. His spoken word album Embers and Earth, available for download on iTunes and Spotify, launched the previous October at the National Concert Hall. A prolific performer, Daniel has featured in festivals including Electric Picnic, Body and Soul, Culture Night and the West Belfast Festival. Daniel was the Hennessy New Irish Writing winner for April 2015 in The Irish Times, and his poetry has appeared in over two dozen publications since 2012.